GMO food that made me sick.

I wonder, who believe that giving the animals growth hormones will not impact the people eating it?

Genetically modified organism

A genetically modified organism is an organism whose genetic material has been altered using genetic engineering techniques. Wikipedia 

 The pork tenderloin is 4 times bigger then i ever have seen it before, not to mention the one out of cows. They give the food an extra input in USA, to get bigger, bigger and with more color. The meat they have in some hamburgers they are not allowed to use in dog food, but it is full legal to use it for humans, the colors they use in food is illegal in the rest of the world, but they use it mostly in all food for kids here so it looks better. 

   The reason why it is illegal other places is that it give a very high risk of cancer, but when it come to kids it doesn't seem to matter.

   So to my story on how food has had an impact on my life, every day throwing up do something with your energy level and how your body loose all vital vitamins and you end up as an anemic mess.

Every time I ate I either got so sick, sweating with a terrible heart rate, blood pressure and I sometimes got so sick I couldn't really say where i was, or i could choose to throw up, get rid of the food that made me sick. When it got bad enough i survived on chocolate and crackers, or hard bread bought in the international isle at Krogers, from Sweden. We couldn't go to a restaurant without me having to throw up, and in the end i was so week i was dissy and had black dots in front of my eyes.

I finally took the time to go to a doctor and she asked me about GMO, if i ever had heard about it, read about it or had looked into any of the way the GMO affected peoples bodies.

So i started looking into what this GMO is, and it gave me so many answers, and it was scary, a lot of my concerns because the food that seem to have the biggest amount of this GMO, is given to kids. Like all the fancy cereals with the bright colors and the lunch boxes, their filled with GMO.

We started to make all our food at home, all our food from scratch, and i haven't been throwing up or sick the last 2 months. After my surgery and after i got all the iron iv's i needed to rise it to a lvl where i wasn't anemic any more, i finally think we are on the right track. We buy most of our meat from a butcher, so now we know where the meat come from and that is hasn't been given GMO food, we buy our veggies and what else we need from places that is labeling their food, and it is like day and night. My energy lvl is finally going up, i can eat normal and enjoy it, instead of being afraid of food, like i was for awhile, and the best thing is that we spend time making our meals together, even my son Daniel is into baking now.

So for all reading this, if you feel like no energy, if your kids have been diagnost with ADD or ADHD or any other newer disease look into what their eating, if you have any type of fibromyalgia or heart, ligament issues, take a time and read about what GMO can do to your body, it might give you a new life.

Debate about GMO

Differences between Europe and USA GMO rules

Food that has to be treated with a mask we might have to eat with one :-) 

I feel so much better after i started looking into what i really eat, so i hope this can help others to.

Metal and broken bones DO make you feel the weather changes.

When the weather changes like they have done here lately, it is hard to keep my spirit positive. After the car accident, where they had to lift my face 9 mm, no matter how nice the metal they use, it still feels like a cold hammer banging around my left eye. Those days are hard to find the strength, the power and energy to do much, that's the days when i remind myself of how blessed i am. My wonderful kids, each and everyone of them with their own ways to be so precious and special, a wonderful "bestest" grandson and another one coming next year, my friends and family, and not to forget the horses, they all make me remember why it is worth getting out of my self pitty stage and do something.

But the on to hold my hand more then any, that always show me and tell me everything will be okay, is my rock Jack, thank you for being in my life and show me the way when i just wanna pull the blanket over my head and sleep through the pain. 

LOVE YOU!!!!

Then i read, Paulo Coelho, he have the most wonderful ways to tell with words that we are our own best friend and worst enemy. We all have to make sure we live now, but at the same time dreams are so important, they make us go on, they push us to new limits and they give us a reason to get through the pain.

Dreams don't have to be big, dreams don't have to be something to change the world, they just have to be something that give us the need and want to move forward.

I have big dreams and small dreams, i even have dreams i know i never can reach, but for me i still have to try, at least i tried, and at least i allowed my self to reach for something and enjoying the road there.  For me, after the car accident it is all about trying, because before you try you can never know what you are able to get accomplished. I was so lucky, being allowed to have a doctor that believed in rehabilitating around horses, being in the nature and learn to overcome my fear of trying and maybe failing. 

I learned that without failing i learn nothing, nothing about myself and nothing about others. I also learned that it always is someone that is harder hit then what i am, someone is always more hurt, have more disabilities, less time to live, less movement, and less friends and family. Someone is always harder hit in their lifes then what i am and have been, so i am so grateful to be allowed to spend my time at the rehabilitation facility Beitostoelen Helsesport Senter, (Health Sport Center)

I met some wonderful kids, born with problems so enormous, but still they tried and worked so hard for their dreams, they had bigger smiles and more hugs to share then any other kid i ever met. 

So on days where the weather make me wonder what and why, i think back on my time there, the smiles from the kids born that way, laughing because they out run me in the wheelchair, or hugging me because i had a hard time rise up when i fell and needed help, they make me remember how blessed i am.

I have met so many wonderful people because of my disability and the need of training and help, and one of them is a young man and a young girl that blow my mind with their spirit. God took Jonathan Wentz to early, but in his young life he touched so many, and Sydney Collier, i don't know if i ever seen anyone smile as she does, knowing what she has been through, is going through and will have to go through. For an older woman like me, she has become an inspiration,  so who ever you are reading my blog, look at her page, Sydney's homepage cheer for her and keep her in your prayers, she sure is changing a lot of life's with her smiles. So i am of to get things done, ride some horses and enjoy what i have, life is good, life is precious and we don't know when it is over, so enjoy as much as you can, dream as much and you can and LIVE each minute on the way!!

Thank you thank you :-)

My day was filled with thoughts. talk and decisions. Thank you Cathy and Gillian for making the decisions so much easier. Today I been riding to wonderful different horses, that made it fun, reminded me why i wanna do this, and why i will enjoy every hard working day of it.

First we talked about horses, what horses I have right now, and what we could use for the plans to reach the goals. I am so grateful for being allowed to ride and enjoy "Roy", Cathy's GP horse, (he is for sale)

and not to forget this little mare, with such a big heart, a wonderful engine and great work ethic. Gillian's Sophia was so much fun to ride, who ever buy her ( yes she is for sale) will get a wonderful team mate, that can go all the way to GP, she is already on her way.

So much fun, and so grateful that this 2 horses and 2 great lady's helped me decide about where to go from here. We will compete and make sure to qualify for next years big event in France, but the biggest goal will be Brazil 2016, and hopefully i can convince Cathy to go for it to.

So back to the hard work of reaching goals, with riding, training and lessons and hopefully i once again can get to where i have qualified for WEG and Paralympics. It will feel so great, just to know i made it again, even though some believed i couldn't do it.

A great day, can't wait to ride again tomorrow, and looking forward to the competitions this winter, and hopefully the first qualification will come in Florida Feb or march 2014. It sure will be a fun, hard working road and great adventure.

Thank you to my wonderful "hubby" I owe you my life, thank you for standing beside me, holding my hand and cheering for tomorrow. Love you!!!!

The beginning of what tomorrow will bring

I have so many decisions to make, about where to go from here. Do I wanna go back to school? Maybe put the training and hours into competing and try to make the team for World Equestrian games, Paralympics 2016? Where do I wanna go from here?

Strange how things happen for a reason, even though I hate it when it happens, and my questions always will come up like, Why? How? Where? but I am getting better at letting go. 

When we was managing the barn, with all this people and all this horses, I never took the time to feel and think about tomorrow, everything was about pleasing people that can't be pleased to 100% no matter what you do, and the feeling about becoming a robot was often real. Just do, don't feel, just do, don't think. People that really know me, know that for every day it make me exist but it sure don't make me live.

So looking back it was a blessing, that we had to rework our contract with the owner, and the horse owners found reasons, like I was competing, We wasn't there, the hay wasn't good enough, the horses wasn't out enough, then they wasn't in enough, so to end it all we decided to move on.

That gave me time, time to start to think and feel again, and looking back, after all that happened, it was a true blessing.

I was sick, my blood values was BAD, i had no iron, and was very anemic and on top of that I had hypoxemia, my lvl was 11mm Hg ( it is serious when it gets under 60mm Hg) so in so many ways we found the source for my low level of energy, my mode  swings, ( I could go from wanting to cry, scream to laugh in seconds for now reason) So the doctors decided to find out how to deal with this and try to fix it, back to IV's with iron and removing my uterus.

Finally approved for surgery another surprise for the doctor, he found a tumor behind my uterus, size of a grapefruit,  but luckily it was removed and everything is fine. Just required some more resting, more time to think and here I am.

I have to decide what to do, because I can't have it all, the time will not allow me to do it all, because someone would have to pay the price for me trying to do both and they don't deserve me never have time for them.

I am looking into different college now, and I would like to start with Criminal Justice and maybe go on to law school, or i will go for the competing and do it 100%

So at least this time has made it down to 2 different choices, and that is where i am today.

So this is and will be my place for thoughts about what to choose, where to go, and how to be ready for tomorrow. Have a great day, enjoy what you have but never forget to dream!!!!